I live in this village, but since the offensive my family has moved to Pristina, and I cannot go to visit them. I haven't seen them for more than two weeks, but we talk on the phone sometimes.SATURDAYI DIDN'T do anything special today - every day is a working day I haven't had a day off in eight months. We don't have electricity, and water comes from a stream on the hill. My house was burnt during the shelling, but the big meeting room was saved, so I live there with my team. The roof was burnt off, so we just share the one room.SUNDAYI LISTEN to the news on a small radio, but I'm not very interested in it - I have my own problems. At the beginning, he was just gazing into the distance, and would not say anything He was silent But now he is OK.He is five years old. Three of them were health workers before the war, the other three are high-school graduates helping out.I was promised that a supply of medicines would come today and so many more patients than usual are waiting But they did not come, so I had many problems.

I felt terrible about the supplies not coming.I also had a session with Besnik, one of the last survivors of the Deliu family - more than 20 of them were massacred in Obrinje last month, men,women and children He responded well to questions, so I felt better about him. I had promised people there would be drugs, so they were very upset and disappointed So was I This was the hardest day since the offensive. I work for three hours, then my neighbour brings me a coffee and I carry on until 2pm. I eat upstairs - someone brings lunch, today it is a tin of tuna. The room is filled with humanitarian aid, but we have a corner to eat in I have 10 minutes, and then I continue working until 6pm. There are six people in my team, including two nurses and a pharmacist. I can't give too many details because of professional secrecy, but ..

everyone fled from his village to the mountains, but the soldiers followed and caught his father - he saw that. Then they came back for the boy and threatened to cut his throat and beat him. The two were held for several days in very bad conditions.Their father survived.FRIDAYEVERY DAY has the same rhythm. I'm the only doctor working in this region and there are 15,000 people. Every day I see 150 to 200 patients. Today I had the case of a brother and sister who are severely traumatised.

The sister is still in a very bad way, she would not say anything except: ``They will kill my brother, they will kill my father.'' She just kept repeating that.The brother didn't say anything at all, but when I questioned him, eventually he answered We gave him a sedative He was terrified there will be another offensive. THURSDAY I WOKE up at 7am as usual and had coffee - I don't smoke My patients are waiting for me. In recent meetings with British and American officials, it has spoken of a "rotation". But many in Timor believe that what has taken place is a significant military build-up.The military presence is obvious simply from driving around. Every few miles are command posts containing regular territorial troops. But there are stranger tales: those of men in unmarked uniforms seizing and interrogating locals. Sources report that training sessions for so-called "paramilitaries" have been conducted near the town of Los Palos and others describe hearing the sounds of rifle training..

In the United Nations, Indonesia and Portugal, which ruled East Timor until Suharto's invasion in 1975, have held cautious talks. The imprisoned guerrilla leader, Xanana Gusmao, has been visited in his Jakarta jail by foreign officials, including the British minister, Derek Fatchett. But in East Timor the atmosphere is very different.After interviews conducted all over East Timor with local leaders, Catholic priests, members of the thriving clandestine movement, as well as ordinary people like the old man in Com one thing is clear: despite public promises to reduce military levels and negotiate a peaceful solution to the war, the Indonesian government has moved large numbers of new troops into the occupied territory, reactivated notorious paramilitary units, and launched a number of recent attacks on the remnants of the rebel resistance in the hills.The first landings at Com took place days after a much better publicised military event in the capital, Dili, where brass bands and dozens of journalists turned out to witness the departure of a thousand Indonesian commandos.At the time the Jakarta government called it a "withdrawal". But the people of Com have plenty of reasons to fear violence and to doubt the official version that, after 23 years of occupation by Indonesia, peace is coming to East Timor.